Crisis
Tonight, I was thinking randomly of things I
should have done in my life for the past years. Have I done enough? Or I have
done nothing? I’m twenty-three and I haven’t accomplished anything yet for
myself and my family. I wanted to do a lot of things but I don’t have the
courage to pursue what I really love. I love to travel but there are lots of
things to be considered. I love to see the world around me and rise up to what
I love. I need to step up my game but how? Am I financially stable? No. Am I
free of any responsibilities? No. I love my family the most and I wanted to
give them everything that they haven’t experience in their lives before. My
parents were my inspirations. Imagine for how many years of hardships and still
they haven’t paid off. I couldn’t imagine myself leaving them behind and follow
my selfish ambition. I am always stuck in the middle of my self-doubt. I need
to do something but how?
I tried to change my habits but I can’t. I was
really worried and afraid. I’m a lonely person inside as well; a very lonely
person that I sometimes couldn’t handle my frustrations. Do I need to change my
track for the better?
Yes, I am intelligent but is it enough to step
up my game? No. Financially I am not stable at the moment but how I wish I
could overthrow this crisis in my life. I’m always the best person in my job
but I felt I was left behind. I was not able to enjoy my years in school
because I was focused on getting higher grades. But I believe the important
lesson in this experience is that you need to handle pressures in life smoothly
and you should always focused in making decisions on your own. At the end of
the day you need to believe in yourself and nobody else will do things for you
but you alone. When I’m alone I always
asked myself have I done enough? When I doubted myself I just loosen myself a
little bit. I just go out and feel my environment. Sunset is the most beautiful
thing on Earth. It makes me realized that we all need to take a rest and become
a much wonderful individual in the future. I really need to redeem myself. So I
am setting my future goals for you guys to know. Please help me achieve these
goals.
1.
I should visit at
least five destinations in the Philippines especially Batanes, Palawan, Bohol,
Siargao and Albay.
2.
I will have my
left-handed guitar.
3.
I will have my
own house and lot when I turned 40.
Please give me a lot of courage to handle
every frustration that will come if I really can’t achieve what I have written.
This is your Manong Junjun!
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